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 SURVIVAL OF THE FITTEST
This last year has been a real whirlwind for professional volleyball player and coach J.P. Calderon. Yes, he’s met tough contenders on the court and he’s weathered the rough seas off the Cook Islands on Survivor; he’s even confronted, head-on, the mighty maelstrom that is Janice Dickinson during his most recent reality-TV stint, but now J.P. Calderon is set to tackle his toughest opponent yet. Himself.
Today as we sit down for lunch, J.P.’s ready—for the first time in his life—to speak frankly about his sexuality, his painful past, his promising future and why he thinks Janice Dickinson is the coolest person on the planet.
J.P. Calderon is the youngest of two boys. His parents divorced when he was just a baby, and his upbringing is not one full of happy memories. But it’s from these imperfect childhood memories J.P. will draw most of the emotional testimony he shares over our lunch today on this balmy winter afternoon in L.A.
“I had decided when I was younger that I was never going to come out. I was planning to get married and have kids, be closeted about it and force myself to be something I knew I wasn’t,” he says very matter-of-factly. J.P. says he knew at the time that his plan wasn’t foolproof, but his decision took precedent over his plight. In his mind—as in the minds of many young gay men—being tormented and closeted was certainly better than being gay.
“I was always the jock. I always got the girls. I was always put in that real ‘masculine’ limelight,” he remembers. “But don’t get me wrong—I do have my feminine moments. You can tell I’m gay. My friends say I’m getting gayer and gayer by the minute!” he animatedly declares. After a moment, our shared laughter falls to silence and then his sullen admission: “But back then, I would see guys who would wear real tight jeans and sashay around or whatever, and I would think, Good for you. At least you are being you. That’s something I’ve never been all my life.”
J.P. turns pensive when I ask him how this remembrance and his realization of never being true to himself make him feel today. “I’ve always regretted it,” he says quietly. “I’ve hated myself. And to realize now that I’ve always hated myself my whole life isn’t easy.”
If J.P.’s presence on the cover of our magazine doesn’t already affirm his friends’ “gayer and gayer by the minute” proclamation, surely J.P.’s new gig on The Janice Dickinson Modeling Agency—a show I remind him may very well be the gayest on TV today—will certainly seal the deal. “I didn’t know that at all,” he laughs. “I really didn’t! But I think this is a calling. I mean, all this stuff is happening to me for a reason. I really believe that.”
Having just recently learned to accept his sexuality at the relatively late age of 31, J.P. is still plagued by self-doubt. “I don’t want to send a bad image to anyone, but sometimes I’m still conflicted. I’m hoping I won’t always be, but I don’t know.” He goes on to share an example about his volleyball teammates and fellow models that has replayed in his mind time and again. “I see them naked all the time. They’re my bros. They’re my teammates,” he explains. “I don’t look at them in that way. I never check them out like that. But I always think, God, if I came out, are they gonna start thinking, ‘Oh, J.P. is checking me out,’ or who knows what? That bothers me
because they’re my friends, my buddies.”
Another fear that hangs over his head, is what his sexuality will mean to the kids he coaches for volleyball. “I’m a role model for kids. And it’s weird, but what if they see their gay coach in a Speedo or whatever and he’s doing this gay magazine? What are they going to think, you know? Am I going to let them down? What are their parents going to think? And I know I shouldn’t care what they think, but I do. I might be the one who is making this a bigger deal than anybody else, but I’m just really self-conscious. I’ve never been more vulnerable or self-conscious in my life.”
J.P. describes his early childhood as pretty free, and looking back on it now, perhaps freeing. He had a strong bond with his mom growing up, but breast cancer took her from him when he was just 9 years old. Of course, he was devastated. His mother had always encouraged J.P. in his more artistic endeavors, and he believes if his mom had lived past his youth, his life may have been very different—that her love and understanding may have made it easier for him to accept himself for the person he truly is. “If my mom was still around, who knows, maybe I would have been that flamboyant kid,” he acknowledges with a soft chuckle, imagining something he may never have let himself even think about before.
“My dad moved in after my mom died,” J.P. says in a tone markedly less jovial. “My brother was already in high school, going into college. He was already an adult. So my dad couldn’t really
do anything to my brother. But my dad got me when I was 9. So I had to go through being an adolescent while [my father] had to come back to raising children after pretty much being a playboy after getting divorced. He was used to being a bachelor. So we just butted heads all the way through.”
The stigma J.P. carries with him to this day is due in no small part to his volatile relationship with his father. In fact, J.P. says it’s this tortured father-son blood tie that has tormented him and shaped, or misshapen, his entire life up to this point.
J.P.’s dad died a year ago this past October from brain cancer.
“My dad represented the machismo, the whole Latino man’s man culture. As a kid, everything I liked was…wrong…in his eyes. He thought modeling and TV and entertainment were…” J.P. trails off, searching for just the right word. I think I know where he’s going but that he’s perhaps hesitant to say it out loud. So I say it for him: “Gay?”
“Yeah,” J.P. admits, his eyes hitting his plate in front of him. “I come from Latino culture and a
blue-collar family where you are only respected if you work really hard, and he never saw any of that [entertainment] as real work. There were laws that I needed to follow in order to be successful in my dad’s eyes. And his laws were never on my agenda.”
“He never trusted me. He made me feel like I was this really bad kid,” he says. Then J.P. is quiet for a minute, and I watch the emotions wash over him as the stories of his wounded childhood begin to take their toll. “You know, when I went to college my dad didn’t even help me move. Like, parents usually get into it, right? They help you. They want to get involved, visit the school? He’s like, ‘Where you going?’ and I say, ‘Dad, I’ve been packing the car because I’m leaving for school.’”
There’s another long pause, and we both begin to poke at our plates of barely eaten lunch. “All these emotions have just been hitting me,” he says, finally looking up at me. “I just remember that as a little kid he was always going out and he would leave me alone. He was never a dad. My brother was my dad…now, he—he did everything for me.”
It’s another moment and another poke at his plate before J.P.’s eyes look up at mine again. “I feel so guilty for saying this, but I felt relieved when my dad died. Because I just felt like I was free. I was finally free.”
So, do you think that if your dad hadn’t died…?
J.P. already knows my question, and he is firm and to the point: “We would not be talking right now.”
He had that much of a hold on you?
“Yes. Definitely.”
So you would still be unhappy?
“Yes. I’d still be very unhappy. I would die unhappy.” He pauses for a moment, realizing, “I think my dad died unhappy.”
Do you think your dad knew you were gay?
“I think my dad knew. Sure. I think everyone [in my family] knows. No one is dumb. I think the more you don’t talk about it, the more they can dance around it and feel comfortable because they can treat me like I am no different.”
But you are no different.
“I know that. And you know that…” J.P. trails off, managing a grin that tries to mask a deep-seated
pain that ponders why others can’t grasp how simple and true it is.
J.P. is intent on making up for lost time now. And he wants to go forward with no regrets. “I’m really, truly doing what I’ve always wanted to do. I always wanted to be in entertainment. I was such a ham when I was a kid. I loved it, you know?” he reflects. “And when my mom died, I stopped. But now I can do it again. It wasn’t until this last year when my dad passed away that I did Survivor, I said yes to Janice Dickinson, to you. I’m coming out and I’m living!” he says, fi nding a smile beneath years of hurt and disappointment. “Like, what the fuck am I doing? Why have I waited so long?”
What’s next, I wonder. “I want to model. I want to act. Sing… I want to do it all,” he reveals with genuine enthusiasm. “I really want to do things I always dreamed about but never did. All that stuff I wanted to do as a kid that immediately got shut down after my mom died. Now I’m reopening that.
“I think that’s why this is all happening. It’s not every day somebody gets slapped in the face with a major magazine like Instinct, Janice Dickinson, her TV show, another show [Survivor]. You know, I think I’m just supposed to do this. Every day I ask myself, ‘What are you doing? What are you doing? What are you doing?!’ I don’t know if this is all gonna hurt me or help me. All I do know is that I am so tired of not being able to be myself. I feel it’s a calling. It’s such a weird and rare way of coming out—an extreme way of coming out—that I just had to say, ‘Yes, I’m supposed to do this. Yes to
Instinct, yes to Janice, everything!’ God’s putting this all on my plate for a reason. And I think I have to do it for me. If I put myself in the most extreme way of coming out, then it forces me to have to deal, because no matter where I go now everyone is going to know—or not know if they don’t care - but at least now nobody’s going to be questioning [my sexuality]. And I think that’s why I did it. It forces me to start living my life.”( J.P.’s coming-out story for Instinct will air on The Janice Dickinson Modeling Agency on Oxygen beginning Jan. 24.)
J.P. hopes his story will help others and that he can be a role model to a younger generation of gay youth who might be afraid to live their lives honestly and without regret. “Happiness is important. When you’re ready, that’s the time to come out, but just realize life is short. Yeah, it’s a stupid cliché, but I kick myself in the ass all the time now for not doing this earlier because I’ve just wasted eight to 10 years of my life that could have been…” he pauses, “…different.”
“You know, I’ve been blaming my dad my whole life for my own unhappiness. I’ve been using the excuse of ‘woe is me’ and ‘my dad made me this way’ and blah-blah-blah for so long, but you know what? Well, I can change that now. And it’s like, ‘Okay, J.P., shut up now. Get over it. Stop blaming your dad. Yeah, he did those things to you. Yeah, he made you who you are—those things you may not like—but now you should recognize you can change it.’ I need to stop blaming my dad and everything that’s happened in my life and learn to live for me.”
His eyes meet mine and I see a determination and truth there. His smile beams, “And now, finally, I am.”
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written by Jason on March 23, 2007
I hope JP realizes he isn't the only one that has the same story going on in life!
written by Michelle on March 26, 2007
As a suburban "straight" happily-married Mom, I'm very impressed by JP's courage. I'd have no hesitations if he were my son's coach. I think he's a great role model - gay, straight, whatever. Be yourself!
written by LC on March 29, 2007
JP is a strong, driven and determined [gay] man. I believe that with his fresh personality and fierce good looks, he will definitely break through the fashion industry. JP is a great fashion model and role model. Keep believing in yourself and be who yo truly are.
Love you JP! I'll be one of your biggest fans! Mwah! Love you!
written by REHjr. on April 12, 2007
Jason, I think JP realizes that he's not the only gay man in the world. He was/is on 2 reality TV series and he is a professional volleyball player, so I think it's only a natural progression for him to tell his story for the public... Oh, and of course, he's a very handsome man, so that also makes a difference. Anyway, you have the same opportunity to tell your story, as we all do... There's no need to be all catty & jealous, Jason... As long as JP doesn't absorb that practice from the gay community, then he'll be alright... We need to support & build each other up in our own community to be taken seriously. I'll never understand why this sort of discrimination against each other continues in gay communities, and other communities alike.
written by Xander on May 27, 2007
outstanding article. through his struggles he should now be able to stand strong as the MAN that he is. Good Luck in achieving your dreams J.P. for they've been put on hold for too long.
written by Benjamin Ip on June 10, 2007
I want to marry this man. end of.
written by Benny on June 21, 2007
My respect to you, J.P. I hope I have the same courage as you did and not waste my time not admitting what I am...
written by Pereira on August 07, 2007
Congratulations for the article. Going through the same situation over here.
Congrats for J.P. Absolutely love him, as a person and as a professional that he is.
My best wishes to you.
written by Lee on September 08, 2007
Another publicity stunt!
?I want to model. I want to act. Sing? I want to do it all.? Shows me this man really has a plan for his life. This stunt is just one of the many stages. Which also explains why the story has to be a sad one.
written by ImperfectlyMe on September 09, 2007
Love the article!
written by Lala (^O^) on September 10, 2007
yeah, we shouldnt blame on someone else for long and keep vengeance on people because it would be a burden in your life .I know its hard but try to forgive it and sooner or later ull forget about it.cheer up!
sry for if there is any mistakes and misunderstanding.(-_-)
but for most of all, i really really really like JP.LOve u .daa...
written by britney wannabe on September 15, 2007
You suppose to follow what your dad wanted you to be, its better for you because your dad knew more about it. They were just being parents who cared about their children. Do not blame him but follow him.
written by sephiroth on September 15, 2007
you all "laknat.........."
written by Anthony on September 19, 2007
He is so honest and genuine and intelligent.
What a great guy. I love him to death.
written by TEGUSTO on October 07, 2007
By the way, sephiroth is cursing you all. Well, laknat=blasphem. Curse sephiroth for hating others. If JP remain single for his life, he could be the among the Chosen and the Few Ones that God dedicated only to serve Him, unbounded by worldly relationship. That's is why gays are created, for God & only Him but to remain single and to the Laws! ...but can't say much if he's not...because I've tried hard myself
written by Adrian on October 10, 2007
I think JP is an amazing person. I have seen him in and around LA and he is doing what makes him happy and I am glad he is being the stong latino that he is and I believe that he will be a role model for younger latino gay boys that are lost and have the same type of father in there lives.
written by Rod on October 11, 2007
good you JP and best of luck in the future pal.
written by dante on October 20, 2007
wow amazing story.. two thumbs up for you... your'e an idol... i was touch with your story...i really admire you dude...GODBLESS and Take care always
written by Leonald on October 21, 2007
JP you are rock dude. Enjoy your life, you are free now...fly..best wish to you.
written by KM on October 23, 2007
I am happy for you! There will, however, be moments when you would have self-doubts, but being who you are have set you free. Live life to the fullest.
written by addison on October 25, 2007
i think that this is a really touching story.i went throgh similar trials w/ my stepdad but most of my heartache came b/c i had to be myself at an early age(17) he couldn't stand the fact that his masculine soccer player stepson is gay.there were times when i felt that maybe i should have kept to myself.bt reading yor story i'm glad i didn't.i would have never been happy.truly happy. i hate that this happened to you but, in the same breath i'm glad that now you are finally able to be who you are.take care of yourself.and please ignore lee can we say bitter!
written by Jonaries from florida on October 26, 2007
I think you need to get over it. First of all unlike all the gays out there that couldnt mask there identity from the public you could. And your story is not half as bad as who knows how many gays. You have looks,your obviously not dumb,and money now from your career as a model etc... your fully independent and self sufficent. You need to stop being overly critical and analytical of everything and yourself. Move on stop dwelling on your sexuality letting it dominate your life...its no more superificial than the industry you work in already. Lastly dont get me wrong I dont dislike you or your accomplishments but enough is enough...inspire people stop wallowing.
written by Roger Walcker on November 02, 2007
JP I watched you on Janice Dickenson. I always thought you were an extrordinarily handsome man and I was hoping you were gay, as am I. Your coming out took wawitos (Hispanic for balls). God bless you JP. I just purchased your Instinct magazine through a website. My best in all you do, and all who you love.
written by Karen on November 06, 2007
Congrats J.P. letting go is the hardest part. Having your coming out moment caught on film made my eyes well up with tears. You could see the look in your eyes screaming for you to HOLD BACK. But you pushed forward. You make me proud! All the best to you my friend.
written by KD on November 23, 2007
I THINK HE WILL BE A HUGE STAR. I LIKE HIS ENERGE. I CAN SEE HIS SOUL WHAT MAKE ME LOVED. I REALLY LIKE YOU. ALWAYS SUPPOT YOU
written by Michel on November 29, 2007
J.P. I saw the emotional reaction you had to the offer on the JD show. I am so glad you did this (for yourself)! Good for you. You are smoking hot and it looks like you are also a very decent and good guy. You gonna make some lucky guy very happy. I am sure you have inspired many people by coming out so publicly. You should be so proud of yourself. That's what being a man is all about!!!
written by mm on December 02, 2007
wow, inspiration.. truly.
he has my respect x
written by Padraic Hayes on December 03, 2007
I admire you JP it takes guts to come out as being gay. I am still trying to come to terms with being gay. I hope you find all the happiness and love in the world
written by velvetskin on December 11, 2007
you moved! me j.p. we have the same story..but the only difference is that my both parents are homophobic..thats why!
written by Josh Jones on December 11, 2007
JD is not a programme I normally but just caught the interview with JP going on in the background.
JP is big-souled and courageous. I don't think any straight guy worth his salt would not be proud to be JP's team mate or Bro.
I was disturbed that JP's expression of self-hatred and he comes across as having such a good soul and should have ample love for himself. He is brave, courageous and will not comform to sterotypes - eminently worthy of love from himself.
written by josh on December 13, 2007
perfection.............mmmmm what a man
written by Henry. on December 13, 2007
I don't get why people insist on calling this a publicity stunt? That one poster above is telling JP to get over himself. And that his money, his looks, his smarts should be enough to give him confidence.
What a load of crap.
Every coming out story is different for everyone. For some, it's really easy to come out. For others (and unfortunately, this is the majority), it is extremely difficult. Even if he has the looks, the money, and the smarts, he still went through the same thing that so many other people went through. And just because he has those three things to his name does not mean he was any less special. Or shouldn't be given the same sympathy and support.
I applaud JP for coming out. Especially publicly like that. I hope he's doing well in his life.
written by Max on December 15, 2007
Welcome to the family! w00t!
written by john mark on December 18, 2007
whatever! im still his number one fan
written by Marc A. Olechnowicz on December 18, 2007
I'd love to be updated on his work (jobs) I'm a HUGE Fan.
AxisMaxRI@aol.com
Wishing him and his family & friends a Happy & Safe Holiday Season from Newport, RI
written by anthony on December 19, 2007
i admire jp for coming out as gay in such a hard and dificult way im a big fan of his as i am gay to and i came out this year and now life begins for jp i just wish him all the happines there is and well done again it takes a lot of guts to accept it and to actualy speak out i know xxx
i would love to here about his work as im a huge fan !
anthonypoad@hotmail.co.uk
written by #1Fan on December 19, 2007
one (if not the most) hottest guys i hav ever seen!
written by Keith on December 22, 2007
J P is a truly brave individual. It may have taken him some time to come to terms with his sexuality, but he definitely came out in a big way. Stay strong JP and good luck in whatever you choose to do.....
written by suette bergen on December 27, 2007
I applaud your valor JP. Just know you will always be loved no matter what.
I have gone through a similar situation only more tragic, but its a struggle that unfortunately a great number of gay men have to deal with. and remember GOD LOVES YOU.
written by Deejay signs on December 28, 2007
Wow so i think that it is so cool that someone can come out under so much pressure. it gives me hope that one day we all will be able to
Deejay Signs
written by oli on January 04, 2008
well...I wish i had the courage to just realize my attraction to some men but i dont know what to do since i like girls too. i am only 18 so i have time.
written by Omar on January 07, 2008
Hello!
I'm a moroccan Gay!
I'm watching "The Janice Dickinson Modeling Agency" , the reality show!
I Think J.P. is so Brave! Because he admits to a world that he's gay. I don't think I can do that!
So, best wishes JP for the new year!!
written by GD CLAUDIO on January 27, 2008
I salute JP Calderon for his braveness. Its not easy to publicly show who you really are. he freed out the inner he, that's a big relief and tranquility on his mind. u
written by Tamucci on January 28, 2008
Just saw the JD-episodes last week and today (we're almost a year behind here in The Netherlands)
I'm very happy for you, you should be proud of yourself!
If you got a job or holiday in The Netherlands or Belgium I'll be happy to be your guide
Take Care!!!
tamucci@live.nl (longshot but hey, just in case, a chat is also ok
written by Wessel on January 29, 2008
Hi, little message from the Netherlands. I saw the episode of JDMA with JP in it, (Yeah I see I'm not the only from The Netherlands who saw it, haha) but I think you are totaly right about your conception of 'being gay'. Being gay doesnt mean you're one of the girls or almost be a girl. It does mean you love guys nothing more or less. well.. I hope my message is clear xD
written by scatnoj on January 29, 2008
i'd like to do you hehehe you are so hot =)
written by MS on January 30, 2008
I think this story WILL help other young gay people (like me) to come out.
JP is such a great rolemodel and for me.
I'm from holland and still living "in the closet". But that will change, change in the coming days..
Wish me luck!
written by johnayumi on February 12, 2008
J P,your so very amazing!i am so inspired by you already and i feel so blessed to hold you in my mind,just a few thoughts of you make me so happy! Best Wishes!
Pianojohn@hotmail.com
written by Büffler on February 24, 2008
J.P You Rock. Am so proud of you.
written by bigmanrineru on March 04, 2008
hello instinct, and thank you for featuring j.p.calderon on your issue. since the janice dickinson modeling agency has been aired...i've been looking for models and he (j.p.calderon) really got my attention. i am, like him is also a closet gay who can't show who am i to people. but am looking for a way to get over it - either by going somewhere far and show myself the real i am or just hide it completely and be happy about my decision. i admire you j.p. and i really love your courage. i hope you could be my first bf...but i know that philippines is quite too far and i'm a bit chubby which don't fit with hunks like you. but if ever i got a point, let's be long-distance friends. here's my number: 639063275365. i'll add you to my space.
thanks j.p.
thanks instinct.
i love you guys!
written by Madriz30 on March 06, 2008
Hi everybody,i understand JP cause, is hard admit that, im gay, but i refuse to be cause many people think about gays, many things, here is some:
1)Have to be queer totally
2)Is a sexual machine that only cares about dick
3)is a man whore
4)Drugs and always dancing
5) Always have to be with gay people, in gay ambient bla bla
Thats stereotips makes me nervous, cause im normal, do many things, and i dont like nothing the things i said before, but here i am in the closet, cause i feel self steem to myself,cause i dont wanna be compare with thats sad things, so i know him today watching the janice show, and i found it this forum, people is free to say whatever, and a big hug for all
written by Denver Torres on March 08, 2008
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written by Denver Torres on March 08, 2008
from Philippines here...the Biggest lover-fan of My JP C ...visit my blog www.literaturedtorres.blogsome.com
written by xiao dong .cui on March 13, 2008
you are natrual born artist.make most of use of it.
written by Charles From Br on March 18, 2008
Hi! When i saw the Tv Show - Janice Dickinson Models - here in Brazil,I was impressed and with much pain in my heart when I saw that JP was with tears in his eyes, after Janet asks about their sexuality. I have 19 years and I'm afraid to tell my parents the truth, but JP gave me forces and I think that Ican be happy with myself.
Well, congratulations for this Magazine - that I didn't know ^^ -and I hope J.P is one of the most importants Models in USA
*sorry for any error, i don't write well in inglish
written by guy on March 23, 2008
hey!!! i would just like to say that his story really made me thinking...cuz i am kind a facing same problems in my life... and dunno what to do...like i put my life in a pause mode or something....if anyone has a suggestion or anything i would love to talk to someboday anout it....just answear here or whatever and we´ll see....bye bye....have fun to everyone
written by danilomanila@yahoo.com on March 29, 2008
i love jp very much! i wish him good luck to his career! i wish to meet him someday!..danny/PHILIPPINES
written by matija on April 01, 2008
hay!
I juce wont samting to say JP. I am from slovenia(Europa) and I wont say JP thet I virli respekt hih
written by Jeff on April 06, 2008
JP your the man! just keep up the good work. and be confident in yourself.
written by Justcall Jay on April 12, 2008
Hey JP, and everyone who has wanted to love a gay man but was prevented from doing so by a significant other like your father. Your courage has brought us together and I hope you can reply with a new blog about your future successes. I would love to be a part of such a blog
justcalljay@yahoo.com
written by Vitor Fernando on April 13, 2008
JP!
i'm from brazil
my english is very bad
'LOL'
but i want say to you
congragulations!
i liked that and i think you is a man bold
by_Vihh
(i wanna be model!)
vihh.2hs@hotmail.com
written by paula jansson on May 04, 2008
hello j.p. how r u doing?
i hope u r doing fine...
and everything u do is perfect...
u do right thing
and i wish u to come thailand..
i want your email address...
if u can give me is gonna be great
anyway i wish u have a good day and good time, paula_beach@live.com
written by neimad@hotmail.com on May 08, 2008
Great guy, very sensitive and intelligent. All the best JP, love from Brunei.
written by opl on May 08, 2008
i cannot do that
written by Secretive in South Africa on May 09, 2008
Its funny how many of us are living a story so close and so similar to JP's!!!
Wow, he really is an inpiration to those of us who are gay!!!
written by Nikki on May 12, 2008
Hi there i am an avid fan from south africa that was really glued to the episodes and look forward to seeing JP, you are an inspiration to all young gay people out there
written by Denver Torres on May 15, 2008
sigh....when will a third world fag ever date a JP Calderon...any fairy fag grandma heraing this? grant my glittering wish
written by chris from nyc on May 19, 2008
J.P. is as masculine, talented, intelligent and hard working as they get. He can stand as a role model of integrity and authenticity for anyone, young or old. May he find inner peace and real love some day.
written by Shaun Lim on May 21, 2008
amazing ! you are gorgeous....
written by Tony on May 21, 2008
always in my mind since "survivor" on Malaysia TV .So happy to see you again in JDMA
written by Andrew Lazarte, Cebu, Philippines on July 01, 2008
If ever you read this. I want to say "Thank you." By setting yourself free, you have unshackled me.
God Bless you.
written by Mustapha on August 29, 2008
Wow, i'm really touched by JP's story because it resemblances my life. My dad also thinks everything i like and do is a mistake. I'm 19 years old and was born in Holland, but originally from Morrocco.
Hopefully I'll have the courage someday to come out and live a life where i can be true to myself. Thanks a lot JP and keep going on.
Bye, Mustapha!!!
written by Matthew on September 16, 2008
I really like J.P, so send all my best wishes to him. He is the toppest super model. I'm a 29 years old chinese guy. Tks
written by jayy on September 30, 2008
omg ilovee j.p.