Colton Haynes Opens Up On Struggles Via "Mental Health Check In"
Actor Colton Haynes has been open about his mental health struggles, but he gives fans an inside look via Paper magazine as part of a "Mental Health Check In." In it he shares his diary entries from Nov. 2, 2014 and Nov. 12, 2016, to show the personal progress he's made in tackling his mental health.
Here's an excerpt from Nov. 2014:
Now I'm so closed off to the world that I can't even get up enough courage to go in public. I'm afraid of people and have become agoraphobic. When I do leave the house it's for work, the liquor store, or to grab coffee and an occasional sandwich from the store to suppress the hunger. I used to wake up and look forward to working out and working on my physical appearance to build up the idea of what people think I am. I am not my cover. I am so full of emotion and love and I wish I was able to express that again. I just feel like I have so much to give but also expect people to give me that amount back and I'm never met with the same amount of love and compassion. I'm drawn to people who need saving or those who need someone to pick up their pieces. I'm drawn to people who ignore me and make me suspect. I am a crab. I'm a cancer. I have so much to give and won't let anyone other than my closest friends see me fall. There are so many things I want to do in this life but don't know how to start. This is something I say frequently but I am not sure if it's the truth or just an excuse...I don't know who I am anymore.