Nigel Campbell's picture

Ellen Page Talks Coming Out: 'I Felt Guilty For Not Being Myself'

Ellen Page spoke with Flare Magazine regarding her decision to come out as a lesbian at the Human Rights Campaign's Time To Thrive conference.

Regarding the lead-up to her big announcement, she tells Flare:

“The more time went by, the more something just happened, an Oh my god—I want to love someone freely and walk down the street and hold my girlfriend’s hand.”

When I remark that she seemed nervous that night, Page smiles her trademark half-smile and acquiesces with a laugh, a sigh and some rat-a-tat repetition. “I was very nervous. I was very nervous, yes. Yes. Very, very nervous. Yes. I was emotional, deeply, deeply emotional.” Though she told her parents she liked-liked girls when she was 19, she was still coming out to herself eight years on. “You think you’re in a place where you’re all I’m thrilled to be gay, I have no issues about being gay anymore, I don’t feel shame about being gay, but you actually do. You’re just not fully aware of it. I think I still felt scared about people knowing. I felt awkward around gay people; I felt guilty for not being myself.”

As for her experience post-coming out, Page says:

"I expected so much more hate,” she says. “It was just remarkably positive, which is beautiful, because it’s indicative of the change that’s happening.” 

We're happy to have you out and proud, Ellen! Come on in, guys, the water's fine!