Gay Man Shines Light On Devastation Of Male Rape In Powerful 'Washington Post' Piece
Gay New York writer Richard Morgan shared the devastatingly powerful story of his rape by a male acquaintance in a Washington Post piece that is essential reading for everyone as it shines a light on the prevalence and misunderstanding of rape among men, both gay and straight.
Here's the beginning excerpt from Morgan's piece:
“I made these for us to celebrate,” he said, sauntering out of the kitchen with two shot glasses full of a red concoction.
“Celebrate what?” I asked.
He cocked his head to one side. “You’re here!” he cheered. “You finally made it.”
I had been on a long, grueling bus ride up from Washington DC to his apartment in New York. It was already 9:45 p.m on a Friday last summer. I felt sore and had just taken a shower to rid the bus experience from my skin. I laughed and, holding the towel around my waist in one hand and the shot glass in the other, I looked at it. “What’s in it?”
“Gin!” I thought he said, more excitedly than he should have. Gin makes me sick. “That’s not really my thing,” I said. Then he pouted, comically and even adorably: “But I made it just for us.”
So I drank it and it was a bit sharp but really delicious, like tart watermelon. “You can hardly taste the gin,” I said.“What gin?”
“You said there was gin.”
He laughed. “I said G.” He meant GHB, gamma-hydroxybutyric acid, commonly known as the date-rape drug. Later came several more druggings, as he held Gatorade up to my limp lips with who-knows-what mixed in. I spent the weekend — about 60 hours — semi-conscious and didn’t leave his apartment until Monday morning. Sometimes I think I never left his apartment, that someone who merely looks and sounds like me walked out.
I had received anal sex twice in my life before that night. By weekend’s end, it was 17 times, according to my fog-of-war count. Eyes squeezed shut, the tally was the only thing I focused on at times — like a ticking clock in a solitary confinement cell. Every addition to the tally meant I was one moment closer to the end. He moved out soon afterward, which helped erase the existence of that place for me.
I was raped. I had met him a few weeks earlier at a house party, and we had hit it off. He was handsome: 30, well-built, tall with long black hair, a surfer’s laugh, and great taste in “X-Men” (Gambit). He was not some lecherous old man. He was not a sexually repressed loser. There was nothing about him that was “rapey” (a word I detest). The sex itself was — I can’t really say it was “good,” because that’s far too moral of a word and far more than he deserves, but it was highly skilled. He knew exactly what he was doing, exactly how to stimulate me. What he didn’t know was when to listen to me saying “no,” when to stop, when to realize that my kicking and punching and shoving and screaming and writhing was not just some sick roleplay while he blasted Lady Gaga’s “I Like It Rough.” He covered my sobbing mouth with his hands. He hushed me and called me “sexy,” as in “You got this, sexy.”
Head over to the Washington Post to read Morgan's full essay. It's a graphic read, but it's one that we think everyone will benefit from.
We applaud Morgan for his openness in sharing his experience.
What's your take away from Morgan's piece, Instincters?