Judy Shepard Chokes Up Over SCOTUS Rulings: I Wish Matthew Was Here To See This

The historic Supreme Court rulings that took down DOMA and Proposition 8 are bittersweet for LGBT ally and activist Judy Shepard, mother of Matthew Shepard. 

People reports:

"There had been a [news] story about same-sex marriage and he was debating it with me," Shepard told PEOPLE Wednesday after the historic Supreme Court ruling in favor of gay marriage. "He asked me if I thought gay couples would ever be allowed to get married and he wasn't at all optimistic it would happen. He was in a mindset of, 'People are never going to accept us or understand us.' It was a much different world then. There was activism happening, yes. And we were moving on from the AIDS pandemic. But ignorance and the fear out there was its own pandemic. For Matthew, it was a very secret world still." 

"I told him I didn't think I would see it in my lifetime, but he probably would in his," she said, her voice shaking. "It's so sad – and ironic – that it turned out the other way." 

Shepard, who turned her grief over her son's murder into a crusade against hate crimes through the Matthew Shepard Foundation, spoke with PEOPLE after taking some time to digest the Supreme Court decision overturning the federal anti-same-sex-marriage Defense of Marriage Act When she first heard the law was ruled unconstitutional and married gay couples were considered by a majority of the Supreme Court to be equal to heterosexual married couples in the eyes of the U.S. Constitution, Shepard said, "Oh my god. It was joyful. It was tearful." 

And Matthew was her first thought: "I wish he'd been here to see it. This case warms my heart, to think that his dream is still coming true."